adjective: subconscious; adjective: sub-conscious
1. of or concerning the part of the mind of which one is not fully aware but which influences one's actions and feelings.
The amount of times recently that I’ve heard “yes, but do you think that maybe subconsciously…” is ridiculous! When I’m feeling angry and upset, and probably a little poorly – I think ‘how would I know if it’s subconscious?!’ And then when I’m in my ‘right mind’ and feeling sensible and proactive; I think ‘well probably… I mean, that makes a lot of sense.’
When I began hearing voices and then visually hallucinating, I questioned everything. Everything I could see. Everything I heard. So when people began talking about me having a subconscious and that there might be all sorts of thoughts and feelings, emotions and knowledge, trapped there – just out of my reach… I think I genuinely had to resist imploding!
The worst one has been when I’ve had people say “do you think that subconsciously you’ve been taking on too much? Too much stress?” And all I can think is ‘well how would I know if it’s subconscious?!’
And that’s the point of my post, how can we truly measure our levels of stress – our levels of pain – levels of anguish – levels of hurt- when we
actually really know?
I mean, is it possible to actually get a handle on your subconscious? Or is that the whole point of it being ‘subconscious’? I mean, when people point something out about it (like, “do you think subconsciously you were really stressed?”) you can suddenly acknowledge it! How come?! Why can’t we do it ourselves? Can we learn to do it ourselves?
I guess that the best (advice) I’ve got is to use previous experience to make judgements around your levels of stress, pain, anguish, and hurt, to manage your mental health.
Ok! For example: more than three things on my to-do list might be too much stress.
More than two upsetting things in my life is, most likely, too much pain and anguish.
And at least one spiteful person in my life is too much hurt.
So, knowing all of that; I can avoid those situations from escalating – from me adding a fourth thing to my ‘to-do’ list, from not asking for help before a third thing causes me pain and anguish, and by maintaining all of the relationships (that are under my control) before a second person hurts me.