ENTIRE COVER REVEAL!!! | EVERYTHING DISORDERED & ALL THE THOUGHTS I’VE HAD ABOUT IT | IN COLLABORATION WITH CANVA

A million dreams are keeping me awake,

I think of what the world could be,

A vision of the one I see,

A million dreams is all its gonna take,

A Million Dreams – The Greatest Showman

So, a while ago, I changed the headers on my Twitter and Facebook profiles to the new front cover of my upcoming book; Everything Disordered. I had decided not to make a huge fuss of it because I’d already done that with the first cover for the original idea for the book. However, I’ve just gone through the process of designing the entire cover (front, back, and spine) for the new version and I thought that this, was worth a bit of fuss!

HOW IT ALL STARTED

Last year, I made the very spontaneous decision to write a book… I say ‘spontaneous,’ but writing my own book has been a dream since I was little, when I first began writing short stories about horses for my Mum and my Nana!

I remember filling notebooks and diaries until I found myself, aged fifteen, writing – in abbreviations – about the abuse. I didn’t even give writing a chance to be therapeutic; I just saw it as a colossal risk. It was a chance that someone could read it. Someone could find out what was happening to me. They could find out in a way that wasn’t under my control. A messy, emotional, way. For so many reasons, I had – on numerous occasions – come to the decision that I couldn’t report the abuse just yet. So, the writing stopped; and for the following two years I turned my attention to self-damaging behaviours. I spent years hurting myself in so many different ways that my attention was so consumed, I almost didn’t miss writing at all.

MENTAL HEALTH & APPLYING FOR A JOB: FROM HOURS TO INTERVIEW TIPS | MY NEW STAFF ROLE WITH ST OSWALD’S HOSPICE

“Try not to become a person of success, but rather try to become a person of value”

Albert Einstein

If you’ve been reading, I’m NOT Disordered for a while you’ll know that whilst lots of things go on behind-the-scenes, you guys get a huge amount of insight into my life (and sometimes the lives of those who I collaborate with!), so imagine how hard it was when I had to keep something a secret for OVER A WEEK!!!

On the 4^th February, a member of the lovely Communications Team; Emma, told me there was a vacancy for the position of Kickstart Project Co-ordinator. She told me straightaway that it was neither heavy in mental health nor communications (the areas I’d like to work in) but wondered if I’d be interested. I read the description and some words stood out to me and I thought; ‘this could totally work!’

The Importance of The Hours:

The other aspect of the job which stood out to me was that it was for just 15 hours a week. For a while now, I’ve been saying that getting back into work is going to be so difficult because I knew going from nothing to part-time or full-time would be a huge shock to the system! Which is why I’ve been taking on various voluntary roles – such as my Chair position with the support group, LEAPS, and my role as a Digital Volunteer with St Oswald’s Hospice. I wanted to get used to having a commitment like that, to having some sort of regular routine to my days, to aid my mental health in getting ready for employment. I mean, I’d like to think that from my recent content and especially my social media posts (Twitter and Instagram: @aimes_wilson), it’s obvious that my mental health recovery is very stable, and it has been for a while now (almost six months of no self-harm).

Five Ways to Manage Your Time:

1.      Set yourself deadlines where possible

2.      Utilise the alarm app on your phone to remind you when to switch tasks

3.      Create a routine

50 OF MY FAVOURITE I’M NOT DISORDERED BLOG POSTS | CELEBRATING 850,000 READERS!!

It feels like just yesterday that I was writing the post celebrating 800,000 readers (you can read it here) and now, just over three months later, we’re on 850,000!

I’ve had so many ideas for this blog post, and very quickly realised that I was going to struggle to decide on one particular theme or format for it. I decided that to be celebrating this milestone, the post really should just be about I’m NOT Disordered…

 

THE MONUMENTAL POSTS FOR MY MENTAL HEALTH

RECOVERY:

 

Saturday, 19 January 2013

The Bad Tribunal

www.imnotdisordered.co.uk/2013/01/i-genuinely-believe-she-would-kill.html

 

Thursday, 28 February 2013

The AWOL Procedure

www.imnotdisordered.co.uk/2013/02/and-why-are-you-in-there-because-shes.html

 

Sunday, 14 April 2013

The Photographic Reminder

http://www.imnotdisordered.co.uk/2013/04/be-brave.html

 

Wednesday, 1 May 2013

Psychotherapy Began!!!

http://www.imnotdisordered.co.uk/2013/05/im-only-anxious-because-of-you.html

 

Wednesday, 8 May 2013

I Came So Close

http://www.imnotdisordered.co.uk/2013/05/again.html

 

Monday, 20 May 2013

And Then I Told the Whole Story

http://www.imnotdisordered.co.uk/2013/05/im-going-to-need-lot-of-prn.html

 

VALENTINES WITH MY BEST-FRIENDS | HAPPY VALENTINES DAY 2021

In the past, being a single Blogger on Valentines Day made creating content on your blog and social media slightly more difficult than if you had a partner who you could write about or share the day with. Now, though? There are so many versions of the day where people are starting to acknowledge the importance best-friends (or even friends and colleagues) can have on a person and why that makes it completely reasonable to show your love and gratitude to them on Valentine’s Day.

So, here I am taking this opportunity to show my love for my best-friends…

Lauren, because of her way of making everything into something aesthetically pleasing:

“Women are the largest untapped reservoir of talent in the world”

Hillary Clinton

 

For Georgie, for her difficult days at work:

“Never give up, for that is just the place and time that the tide will turn”

Harriet Beecher-Stowe

PART THREE OF THREE | EVERYTHING YOU NEED TO KNOW ABOUT ABUSE

Having thoroughly enjoyed writing the ‘everything-you-need-to-know’ style posts in the past, when I checked through previous posts about abuse, I noticed they all seem to be in pieces… Bits of information, parts of my experience, a few tips; all just separated into so many different posts. Of course, they are that way because up to the date they were published, they were the things I knew. The things that had happened. And I’m not suggesting that I’m at a point where I now know absolutely everything about the subject, but I do feel that I’m at a pretty good stage in my mental health recovery to feel I am now able to collate all that I have learnt, and all that I know. Unfortunately, abuse is a subject where I’d argue you will never fully understand unless it’s something you’ve experienced, so posts like this – media content by survivors – can be the best resource for those who want to learn more…

PART ONE: http://www.imnotdisordered.co.uk/2021/02/everything-you-need-to-know-about-abuse.html

PART TWO: www.imnotdisordered.co.uk/2021/02/part-two-of-three-everything-you-need.html

 

What Are Triggers?

A trigger is defined as being a ‘cause to function’ but in mental health, I fully believe it can have a completely different definition to each individual. I was once in Accident and Emergency (A&E) and I told a Doctor he was triggering me, and I remember him saying ‘what does that mean?’ I couldn’t understand how he didn’t know and then he corrected himself with: ‘what does that mean to you?’