Saturday, 20 January 2018

WEEK THREE | 52 LISTS FOR HAPPINESS | OLIVER BONAS | AD

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Every week, for 2018 there will be post of what I’ve done in the book each week. And the third list?

List the things that you are really good at:

Tuesday, 16 January 2018

HAPPY 29TH BIRTHDAY RONNIE | A COLLECTION OF MEMORIES WITH MY FIANCE



Before I get started on this post, you might want to read this post from 2016 where I talk about PDA and my thoughts on talking about my relationship online.





















To mark my Fiancé, Ronnie’s, Twenty Ninth (he’s going to kill me for saying that!) Birthday; I figured I’d do a post on all things ‘A&R.”

Sunday, 14 January 2018

WEEK TWO | 52 LISTS FOR HAPPINESS | OLIVER BONAS | AD


A little while ago I was wandering around Oliver Bonas in their Euston store in London and came across this little beauty…




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Every week, for 2018 there will be post of what I’ve done in the book each week. And the second list?



The routines in my personal life & work:

Saturday, 13 January 2018

A CHAT WITH ME & A POEM BY NADINE APPLEBY, MIND AMBASSADOR | AD

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One positive, I think, people get from reading I’m NOT Disordered is a feeling of comfort. A reduction in thoughts of loneliness; confirmation that it is not only yourself feeling the way you or having the thoughts that you may have. I’ve found that feeling alone can be a huge catalyst to thoughts of self-harm and even, suicide.

The one problem now is that I’m in recovery!

I rarely have dark moments and if I do then there is never thoughts of suicide; occasionally thoughts of self-harm, but never to die. The only real ‘comfort’ I can provide is that once upon a time, I went through these things. I self-harmed many times. I attempted suicide many times. I was sectioned, hospitalised, and put through intense therapies to find myself in recovery.

When I talk about the struggles, it’s in the past tense. For those who may find this less helpful… It goes without saying that I’ve gotten to know lots of people from inpatient services and, inevitably, some of these people are still in a bad place. When one of these friends, Nadine Appleby published a poem on her Facebook page, I immediately asked if I could publish it on I’m NOT Disordered.


I hope that it brings comfort to some, and enlightenment to others…

Wednesday, 10 January 2018

HOW TO AVOID DRAMA: FAMILY, WORK, HEALTH, RELATIONSHIPS & FRIENDS



Photography - R J Photography
drama
ˈdrɑːmə/
noun
noun: drama; plural noun: dramas
1. a play for theatre, radio, or television.
"a gritty urban drama about growing up in Harlem"
2. an exciting, emotional, or unexpected event or circumstance.
"a hostage drama"


It’s an understatement to say that while I was being abused, my behaviour changed dramatically - I think it’s an obvious one though… Keeping abuse a secret can cause a lot of conflicting thoughts and feelings; a lot of pent up anger and frustration.

For me, I was angry that no one could see what was going on. How could no one see beyond my actions? My behaviour? It was labelled ‘dramatic.’ I, was labelled a ‘drama queen.’ Since then if anyone has called me that in jest or in banter then I’ve thought straight back to that bullying in High School while I was abused. Back to when I took my anger out on the teachers who were meant to have the authority to stop this sort of thing. On everyone in the one place that is meant to be safe for children and young people.