Wednesday, 22 November 2017

TWO YEARS 'TIL WE MARRY & ONE YEAR SINCE THE PROPOSAL



In exactly two years (22nd November 2019), I’ll be standing at the front of a church telling my soul mate “I do,” love him and will continue to for all eternity.
And tomorrow will be the one year anniversary since I said ‘yes,’ I’ll make that promise, and say those vows, and wear that beautiful princess-cut diamond ring.



Forever and beyond
That’s how long I’ll stay
How long I’ll love you
With the promise not to stray


I’ll be by your side
When times get tough
Through the good and the bad
When things are rough

I can’t imagine life without you
I hope I never do
I’d much rather think about
The moment I say ‘I do’

Tuesday, 21 November 2017

HOW I STOPPED THINKING IN BLACK OR WHITE


I’m sure this it quite common for writers/bloggers; but I can draw inspiration for blog posts from the random of things. This post comes from a ‘challenge’ doing its rounds on Facebook. Every day for seven days, you’re meant to post a black and white photo. It can’t be of a person and you can’t explain it in the photo description/wall post. You also have to nominate someone on day one (you’ll have been nominated yourself from someone else, obviously!) to keep the challenge rolling.

Obviously, you’ve seen the title to this post I’m sure there’s no need to point it out, but the ‘black and white’ aspect of the challenge inspired me to write about black and white thinking.

Wednesday, 8 November 2017

COPING WITH MY ABUSER'S PROMOTION


I know already that this is going to be a hard post to write. And not because it’s deep, or emotional. But because I need to talk about something to do with my trauma, and as most of you (although there’s been a lot of new readers recently! – Welcome to I’m NOT Disordered!!) know; ‘due to legal reasons,’ I can’t give much information about the sexual abuse and rape that I was subjected to.

I could understand not being allowed to tell you the person’s name, but it’s that I can’t even tell you the basics. For example, what profession this person is in, or where the abuse happened. Apparently, just by saying those two basic details, and if you knew me during the years the abuse happened (2006-2007) then you could put it all together; and make a reasonable assumption of the identity of the person. Apparently, that wouldn’t be fair on him because he was never proven guilty.

Friday, 3 November 2017

BOOK REVIEW PART TWO : LINES FROM AN UNFINISHED LOVE SONG BY GAIL CURRY | Ad


Welcome back to more Lines From An Unfinished Love Song chat!!

If you don’t have a clue what I’m on about, here’s the previous three posts:




I knew that the second part of Lines From An Unfinished Love Song would be difficult and perhaps upsetting to read. It wasn’t just seeing that the second part of the book was named ‘Grief, Depression & PTSD;’ but also that the first part finished with such a heart-wrenching moment in which Gail (Curry; the author) lost her wife: Lena.

This feeling only worsened when I read the first poem; ‘Lost’ and identified 100% with Gail’s words.



‘A day seems longer than a day

When the only voice that’s heard comes from inside me.’ 

Tuesday, 17 October 2017

THE BIG AWKWARD CHAT: SEX, RAPE, & SEXUAL ABUSE

trigger warning: this post contains discussion of topics that may be upsetting to some readers


Even just writing the title of this post has me feeling awkward, embarrassed, anxious and doubtful that I should write such a post!
But why?
People talk about having children.
People talk about getting married.
People definitely talk about sex.
And people are starting to talk about rape and sexual abuse.
So is it that, because someone/I experiences those last two things it is made more difficult to discuss – or even mention – the rest?