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“Do
what you can with all you have, wherever you are.”
Theodore Roosevelt
This post has actually become
something it wasn’t going to be when I first thought of it and started planning
it! Initially, I thought that it would just be a ton of images created on Canva, but in creating the images,
I began thinking a lot about what they mean, how important they can be, and how
they can impact mental health…
GOALS:
I
think that being able to find an image that you can turn into something you’d
like to strive to achieve or aim for, is a big reason for utilising a site like
Pinterest.
The
first time I can remember having a ‘goal’ in life wasn’t around studying for
exams at School and wanting to pass them, it was about the abuse. And yes, it
was the obvious goal of wanting it to stop. On the first instance, I think I
was 100% sure that it wasn’t going to happen again; that belief wasn’t the
reason I didn’t scream or why I didn’t report it. It was the reason why I
didn’t feel the need to even hope for that or to set a goal for there to be no
more instances. I think it was maybe the third or fourth time when I stepped
out of the denial I’d been using as a coping mechanism and realised this was something,
I was going to have to aim to find a way to end it.
I had so many reasons why I wasn’t reporting it to anyone (mainly his threats and my belief that I wouldn’t be believed) so I turned to my behaviours. To changing my attitude so dramatically that I believed at least one person would turn around and wonder why I was acting this way. I hadn’t put much thought into it, but I just knew that if I were specifically asked by absolutely anyone, I would tell the truth. Of course, that changed and when my Mum checked I was ok, I lied. I guess that by that time, I’d come up with all sorts of worries that weren’t all about whether I was believed but also, whether I would be judged for it – whether someone would deem me deserving of it or even that they’d think I was the cause of it.
